Thursday, December 16, 2010

Do we need yet another AS blog?

Maybe or maybe not. I'm doing this to help myself. If I can help anyone else along the way, may it be blessed.

I'm a newly-diagnosed Aspie with 52 years of living under my belt. I'm from a generation that grew up without hearing about Asperger's Syndrome. I felt the need to get an official diagnosis because 1) I like things to be definite and official 2) I needed an explanation for 'everything' and 3) If it's official, maybe I can disclose to others and they can't say I'm just imagining things, or I'm just making up lame excuses and that if I wanted to, I could be warm and fuzzy and 'normal' like everyone else.

I work as a special education assistant in a high school. I'm really too smart for this job, but it seems to be common for Aspies to work beneath their potential, at least potential as a high IQ and creativity seem to suggest. I have worked with autistic children (along with Down Syndrome, FAS, etc.), and that's what gave me the first clue to the possibility that I might have something similar. I've always been different, have always had a hard time fitting in and feeling as if I don't belong. I don't connect with people. I tend to grab the wrong interpretation of what someone is saying and either run into trouble because of it, or find myself grasping for what they really meant. I've had no end of problems with this one. Well, I could go on and on...but I gather people get tired of that. :)

I'm on a journey, metaphorically. What difference will knowing about AS make in my life? Will I connect with other Aspies along the way? (They seem to be few and far between in Alaska). Will I be of help to someone like me who has lots of unanswered questions? I don't pretend to have any answers, much less all the answers. All I know is what my own life has been like, and that's what I'll share. If you wish to join me--Welcome!

2 comments:

  1. Another voice, another perspective, is always a welcome thing. :-) I look forward to getting to know you better.

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  2. Me too. Also, if you haven't yet, check out Rachel Cohen-Rottenberg's blog Journeys with Autism. She was diagnosed at age 50, and has a wealth of wonderful insights.

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